Josh is Gone...Back to Reality...

Kind of....

I took the day off today. I haven't taken a day off from going to the studios in over a month. This happened for a couple reasons:

1) I have really been into the painting I have been working on
2) Wanted to have every opportunity to potentially spend time with Josh

Being there did not help the Josh situation. Perhaps he just thought-- man! that girl doesn't have a life...who knows, but anyway, I took a day off, just like back in the days when I was still with my ex-boyfriend and not chasing the boys at the studios...

I actually went and did some errands with Sam today, as he is temporarily without a car, and I will be moving in with him during the next week or so...I met the dog today too! She's a sweetie :)-- I am very much looking forward to having a dog, I think it will be therapuetic...sometimes I have significant issues with social anxiety, even around Sam occassionaly-- so the dog will help. I am fairly comfortable with Sam though, more so than most people in my city..

I also went through some of my stuff and boxed up some things for the move. I think I may bring the first load over tomorrow...it is time for me to focus on my shit...

Kiss Rocker Transitions into Painting

http://news.yahoo.com/nphotos/Kiss-rocker-transitions-painter/ss/events/en/031609paulstanleyart

I could say so much, but I will refrain...no wait, I won't-- I have nothing to lose...If some average fuckhead off the street did this is would be ignored...

I'm not saying he sucks, cause he doesn't, I'm just saying, I've seen just as good, as some better, but not recognized...

I fucking hate my life...(and I'm not just talking about me-- I'm talking about society)